I don’t know where to put this

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I haven’t written in a long time.  I used to think… still think… that I need to write often to get my mind straight.

So here I am.

Worse than I have been in a long time.

The mediocre mastermind isn’t helping me right now.  I have too many irons in the fire.  I have been bit by the entrepreneurial bug.  Some may say that is a good thing… Not in my case.  I wish I could go back and be the way I was.  Ignorance is bliss.

I know that there could be a better life out there for me and my family.  I know that I have the knowledge and skill to do something great.  And I am on the verge… So close… but damn… I can’t get anything going… And I struggle everyday to do the day job.

I know. I know.  Everyone struggles with their day job.  But yeah… my motivation is at an all time low and I am spread sooo thin between so many projects.

What is wrong with me?  Why can’t I focus?  Why?

Of all the things I suggest to improve yourself… I can’t figure out how to help myself.  I just can’t.

I think… you need to stop everything.  I mean… EVERYTHING… just focus on your day job.  But… I can’t.  I feel like any of them would help us financially.  And that would be QUITTING.  I’m not a quitter… Maybe I should be.

It’s beginning to take its toll.  Physically.  Emotionally.  It’s taking its toll on my day job.

I think maybe just get a new day job.  Something to get me focused.  Something that will give me experience in something I am interested in.

I am very lonely.  That is why I have turned to this blog.  I have no where to vent. I am so scattered.  To the point of paralysis.

I need to kick myself in the ASS.  Get off my ass.  Quit crying about it…

Ok. that’s all well and good but… get off my ass and DO WHAT?

Any advice out there?

October 25th, 2017 by